Anxiousness and the Word

With all of the exciting news and updates for leaving for the UK, I woke up this morning feeling a bit off. Anxious is the best word to describe it! The first thought in my head was that in 2.5 months, I won't be waking up in this bed.  

In 2.5 months, Mercy won't be coming in my room asking to read a book.  In 2.5 months, I won't be frustrated with her as she tries to pick out a movie or show to watch before I leave for work.  In 2.5 months, I won't know anyone in the city I'm in.  In 2.5 months, I'll be in an unfamiliar place, far away from anyone and anything familiar.

I was a bit scared....

As soon as those thoughts came to mind, I asked the Lord to help fight them off.  I knew they weren't from Him because He doesn't give us anxious thoughts - those are all horrible 'gifts' from the enemy.  

Every morning on my way to work, I listen to the Daily Audio Bible podcast.  I'm behind a bit, so this morning I listened to Psalm 139 - and my soul just felt a huge wave of peace:

O Lord, you have psearched me and known me!

2  You qknow when I sit down and when I rise up;

you rdiscern my thoughts from afar.

3  You search out my path and my lying down

and are acquainted with all my ways.

4  Even before a word is on my tongue,

behold, O Lord, syou know it altogether.

5  You them me in, behind and before,

and ulay your hand upon me.

6  vSuch knowledge is wtoo wonderful for me;

it is high; I cannot attain it.

7  xWhere shall I go from your Spirit?

Or where yshall I flee from your presence?

8  zIf I ascend to heaven, you are there!

aIf I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!

9  If I take the wings of the morning

and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,

10  even there your hand shall blead me,

and your right hand shall hold me.

11  If I say, c“Surely the darkness shall cover me,

and the light about me be night,”

12  deven the darkness is not dark to you;

the night is bright as the day,

for darkness is as light with you.

13  For you eformed my inward parts;

you fknitted me together in my mother's womb.

14  I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.1

gWonderful are your works;

my soul knows it very well.

15  hMy frame was not hidden from you,

when I was being made in secret,

intricately woven in ithe depths of the earth.

16  Your eyes saw my unformed substance;

in your jbook were written, every one of them,

the days that were formed for me,

when as yet there was none of them.

17  How precious to me are your kthoughts, O God!

How vast is the sum of them!

18  lIf I would count them, they are more than mthe sand.

I awake, and I am still with you.

19  Oh that you would nslay the wicked, O God!

O omen of blood, pdepart from me!

20  They qspeak against you with malicious intent;

your enemies rtake your name in vain.2

21  sDo I not hate those who hate you, O Lord?

And do I not tloathe those who urise up against you?

22  I hate them with complete hatred;

I count them my enemies.

23  Search me, O God, and know my heart!

vTry me and know my thoughts!3

24  And see if there be any grievous way in me,

and wlead me in xthe way everlasting!

The God who knows my every thought, 

who has every day of mine written out, 

who formed my innermost being, 

whose hand is laid upon me, 

who knows when I rise or sit,

the God whose Spirit never loses sight of me....

THAT is the God I serve.  

He has already gone before me in the UK.  He already has an amazing church community, full of brothers and sisters, waiting for me.  He will be beside me every step of the way.  There is NO place too far, hidden or unknown for Him.  Although I may not know anyone there, I trust and rest in the fact that my God does.

I'm not going by myself - His hand is on me, leading and guiding me every step of the way.
How can I stay anxious when I trust and remember that?