Worthy

Worthy.
It's such a big, weighty word.

Worthy.
Someone who is worthy deserves respect.
They deserve attention, and for others to put forth effort.

Worthy.
A worthy person is considered good enough.
They are righteous and have the ability and qualities that deserve recognition.

Worthy.
It's not a word that I assign to others lightly.
It's not a word that I would ever ascribe to myself.

Worthy.  

According to God's Word, 

His children are worthy...

...which means I am worthy.

Psalm 139

"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made."

God pays attention to me - every single detail.  

I am worthy.

Matthew 10

"But even the hairs of your head are all numbered.  Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows."

God knows all of me - and I have value.

I am worthy. 

Galatians 2

"And the life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me."

God loves me - and he gave His Son for me. 

 I am worthy. 

Romans 3

"...for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus."

God justified and redeemed me - through Jesus Christ.

I am worthy. 

God's Word has so much truth in it - declaring my worthiness in God's eyes.  Nothing that I've done on my own makes me worthy, but God makes it clear that because of Christ, I am truly worthy.

Despite this truth, I constantly believe the lie that I am unworthy.

I don't deserve attention.

I don't deserve respect. 

I'm not good enough.

I'm unworthy.

I don't deserve recognition.

I don't deserve effort.

I'm not good enough. 

I'm unworthy.

I don't deserve love.

I don't deserve forgiveness.

I'm not good enough.

I'm unworthy.

This is the lie that Satan uses constantly to keep me drowning in pain - to keep my eyes focused on my past life. A life separated from God.  A life devoted to pleasing self and working hard to please others. A life of hurt, regret, shame, and being used by others.  A life lived in fear of people leaving.

All because I wasn't worthy.

Until the Lord opened my eyes and lavished me with His:

love,

grace,

forgiveness, 

redemption. 

I am [learning] to believe and apply the truth that when I became a child of God, my identity formed in performance, guilt, and shame is no longer who I am.  

I am a new creation.  

My transgressions are removed from me.  

I am white as snow.  I am clean.  

I am a daughter of the King. I belong to Him.  

Because of Christ, I have a new identity.

And this new identity tells me that I am worthy.