Rollercoaster Ride Week
Last week was a pretty emotional week. On Tuesday, I was cleared by Finance for departure, and by Friday, I got word my visa application was 'unsuccessful.'
It's pretty hard to go from one extreme display of God's faithfulness to another. From one crazy high blessing, to something that doesn't seem much like a blessing.
My normal course would be to find all the positives in this: I get to grow more from this, I get to learn new things, I get to gain wisdom here, and I get to spend more time with my family. Clearly there is something that God still wants me to do here, and He isn't ready for me to be in the UK yet.
All of that is so incredibly true - and believe me, I am clinging to those promises now. However, my heart also feels broken. I've had heartbreaks before, but this is a different kind. When you feel like everything is falling perfectly into place, and then something happens that just catches you by surprise and slams a door in your face.
I have told people before how I seriously feel like my heart is in Bawtry now. I am going to miss everyone so incredibly much, but I just let my heart fall in love with the people, the city, the vision - the overall mission of this role.
This week will be filled with taking various steps to get this visa situation worked out. I'll be living in a bit of uncertainty, as will all of my awesome family, friends, and team. Please pray for wisdom, discernment, strength, and encouragement for all of us.
Pray that this gets fixed quickly so my body can get to where the Lord has sent my heart on ahead :)
It's pretty hard to go from one extreme display of God's faithfulness to another. From one crazy high blessing, to something that doesn't seem much like a blessing.
My normal course would be to find all the positives in this: I get to grow more from this, I get to learn new things, I get to gain wisdom here, and I get to spend more time with my family. Clearly there is something that God still wants me to do here, and He isn't ready for me to be in the UK yet.
All of that is so incredibly true - and believe me, I am clinging to those promises now. However, my heart also feels broken. I've had heartbreaks before, but this is a different kind. When you feel like everything is falling perfectly into place, and then something happens that just catches you by surprise and slams a door in your face.
I have told people before how I seriously feel like my heart is in Bawtry now. I am going to miss everyone so incredibly much, but I just let my heart fall in love with the people, the city, the vision - the overall mission of this role.
Since my heart is there, it hurts that I can't physically be there right now.
This week will be filled with taking various steps to get this visa situation worked out. I'll be living in a bit of uncertainty, as will all of my awesome family, friends, and team. Please pray for wisdom, discernment, strength, and encouragement for all of us.
Pray that this gets fixed quickly so my body can get to where the Lord has sent my heart on ahead :)
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