Thankful

This morning, my heart is overwhelmed with thanksgiving. I don't know why it's hitting me harder than it ever has, but it brings tears to my eyes as I reflect on all that God's done - and all that He is continuing to do.

I journaled a bit of those thoughts this morning...

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Father,

On this Thanksgiving morning, my heart is simply overwhelmed with all that I have to be thankful to you for. I'm truly in awe to get to be a witness to you MOVE. This time last year, I was about to head full force into my downward spiral. To think you knew that...yet still had all these gifts and treasures planned for me this year?

Humbled. In Awe. In Wonder

Full of Fear.

That's what I'm feeling towards you. I don't know why its so overwhelming right now, but your presence and love is just truly blowing my mind.

There are so many unknowns ahead, yet I feel as if my faith - your faith in me - is growing leaps and bounds. Its truly insane....I'm not worried about planning for February, everything with my career path, searching for a place to live - yes, I'm taking steps to prepare - but Father, I simply trust you.

I've seen you move so mightily - to make red seas out of everything.
I'm trusting you to do it again
....over and over....

This song is so beautiful Father because it's this CRY to be in a place where you must make a way. It's a cry of my own heart - to be led to places where I get to see your glory unfold. Whether that means ups or down, Lord I desire to see you make a way - to part the overwhelming red seas - to do the impossible.

This is a year of faith...and I'm already seeing and feeling it come to pass.  Father, I'm asking you to show off in my life, in Mark's, in our Church, in our workplaces, in Richmond, in the States, in this WORLD.

Do things that can only be attributed to you - nothing else. Use me however you see best; I know that it is a true honour to get to be not only a witness to your work, but a participant as well. 

Today, above all else, I'm so thankful for your son. I'm so thankful that he came to this world...felt what we feel: 

tiredness, weariness, trust, pain, 

heartbreak, sorrow, abuse, 

joy, friendship, loneliness, 

LOVE.

I couldn't imagine serving a god who didn't understand the pain and temptation and sorrow in this world. Yet you humbled yourself, Jesus, so that we could relate to you.  You surrendered your life so that we may live - THAT is true love.

sacrifice, selflessness, putting others' needs first, 

laying down your feelings for what is RIGHT.

Thank you for making a way...for allowing me - this world - to approach you without fear....that we can approach the throne of GRACE. And not only just approach you and be in your presence, but be your friend, your child, your bride.

I'm in awe of you...and the beautiful scandal of your grace. Your love is overwhelming - and it sets me free to trust...to believe..to have FAITH in your character of always making a way in all of our Red Sea Roads ahead.

Forever let my heart proclaim

thank you <3